Saturday, November 27, 2010

A little rant....

NO!!!  It certainly doesn't feel like it at least.  To some it might feel as though life is ending.  As I slowly approach 30, I feel like half of my life is over and I haven't accomplished one of my major dreams or goals!  This may be a little melodramatic for some of you, but, am I really the only one who feels this?  I am turning 30 next September and I don't really know how I feel about it.  I can say that I don't feel as though I have accomplished near what I imagined I would.  The fact that I am not who I thought I would be makes me feel like a failure.  But there is hope for me yet.  I have finally accepted the fact that I need to work on “me” in order to get myself to where I want to be.  Nobody can do it for me.  People are not going to make right the wrongs they have done; it is time to stop waiting; it will never happen.  No more idling by and watching from the side lines like you do at your local high school football game.  It is time that I, Kasia, take charge of my life!  This decision is going to be hard for me to stick to.  I am going to get some flak from people whom I care about and care about what they think of me.  I know this battle is long overdue.  In the past, I have been too scared to even think about "going there" however, I am finally ready to ruffle some feathers; including my own.  And I need cheerleaders to help me fight!  Will you raise your pompoms high and cheer your hearts out?  Will you get the crowd pumped, on their feet and ready for action? (In crowd I mean me)  Who’s with me?  I need all the encouragement I can get!


  1. What goals have you not accomplished that you wish you had? I'll cheer for you!! Turning 30 isn't fun and it really isn't pretty. That said, I think I much prefer my 30's over my 20's...

    Posted by: Jessica Engvall | 11/21/2010 at 02:14 PM

  2. Kasia I will be your number one cheerleader! You have been my cheerleader many different times. I am also working on myself and some personal goals. Maybe we can work on some of these things together. I am a little further from thirty than you but it seems that the people I know in their thirties haven't let it slow them down at all!

    Posted by: Michelle Gaede | 11/21/2010 at 02:45 PM

  3. Michelle, thank you so much!! I appreciate our friendship. I don't plan on slowing down at all. =0) I want to face things that I have not had the courage to face until now. I look forward to taking this journey with you.

    Jessica, I just had all of these ideas in my head. Like, how I would look at 30, how many kids I would have, what kind of house I would live in, college done and a career in place, etc. I just feel like I have let life pass me by in a sense. I do see how my 30's will better than my 20's because I won't be making the mistakes I made in my 30's that I did in my 20's. Those are long gone. Thank you for your support. I sincerely appreciate it.

    Posted by: Kasia | 11/21/2010 at 03:43 PM