The Path to the new me....

As I move forward on path to the new me, I start thinking about things I can improve in my life and in those around me. Some things I have been thinking about are the "little things". Everyone says that the “little things” are the most important. Well, I think they are right. It is the “little things” which happen at just the right times that keep people from going completely in sane. I am speaking from personal experience here. For example, on the days where I am one fight or tattling away from strangling my children that without warning, one of them does something incredible that melts a mommy’s heart in a way that only little ones can. My desire to lock them in the closet goes away and I can, once again, tolerate a little more tattling and fighting that they throw my way. That, my friends, is a "little thing". Actually, it is a huge thing in the lives of stay at home moms but that is where I am going. The “little things” mean so much to human beings that they are tremendously important in our day to day relations. It may seem like such a small thing that it wouldn’t even make a difference however, it could mean the world to someone else. I was out walking one day and this lady stopped me. I could tell that her flower was missing a few petals but I didn’t mind as she started telling me about something she had won. She was so excited it was bubbling out of her as she was talking to me. I stood there smiling and listening. That was all I did. I could have easily walked on by and ignored her but I choose to stop and let her have this moment. That “little thing” didn’t mean much to me but I know that it was special to her. I couldn’t help but keep a smile on my face for the rest of the day. It really does make you feel good about yourself. It is a great confidence booster so why not try it out?

A little rant....

NO!!!  It certainly doesn't feel like it at least.  To some it might feel as though life is ending.  As I slowly approach 30, I feel like half of my life is over and I haven't accomplished one of my major dreams or goals!  This may be a little melodramatic for some of you, but, am I really the only one who feels this?  I am turning 30 next September and I don't really know how I feel about it.  I can say that I don't feel as though I have accomplished near what I imagined I would.  The fact that I am not who I thought I would be makes me feel like a failure.  But there is hope for me yet.  I have finally accepted the fact that I need to work on “me” in order to get myself to where I want to be.  Nobody can do it for me.  People are not going to make right the wrongs they have done; it is time to stop waiting; it will never happen.  No more idling by and watching from the side lines like you do at your local high school football game.  It is time that I, Kasia, take charge of my life!  This decision is going to be hard for me to stick to.  I am going to get some flak from people whom I care about and care about what they think of me.  I know this battle is long overdue.  In the past, I have been too scared to even think about "going there" however, I am finally ready to ruffle some feathers; including my own.  And I need cheerleaders to help me fight!  Will you raise your pompoms high and cheer your hearts out?  Will you get the crowd pumped, on their feet and ready for action? (In crowd I mean me)  Who’s with me?  I need all the encouragement I can get!